Week 20:
I go to a maternal fetal specialist every two weeks and my
ob every four weeks. The maternal fetal specialist does ultrasounds every
visit. It has been amazing to see our sweet baby growing right before our eyes.
Big sister almost always accompanies me to these appointments. She sits next to
me on the bed and stares in wonder at the screen repeating baby over and over.
It lights me up. That and she scolds the doctor or ultrasound tech for touching
my bare belly. She constantly tries to pull my shirt down. She is going to be an amazing big sister. She
kisses my belly and when prompted will point out the baby in mommy’s tummy.
Sometimes the baby is even in her tummy. However this new baby has not stopped
big sister from nursing, it may have even turned up her desire. She
still nurses between 5-7 times a day. Let me remind you, I work full-time
outside of the home. She goes to daycare for 9.5 hours a day and still manages
to get up to 7 nursing sessions in. Advice on weaning welcomed. Aversion has
set in. This breaks my heart since it makes something I enjoy feel awful in a
weird way. It mostly only affects me if I cannot see her (in the middle of the
night) or if she is having one of those will not unlatch nursing sessions (most
often when she isn’t feeling 100%). Recently I have read that aversion can be linked to dehydration too so I have been trying to drink massive amounts of water. I still have hopes that she will self wean.
I have attempted on several occasions to reduce the number of nursing sessions.
SCREAMS. That is what I get and I cannot handle it so we are on her schedule
for the time being.
Thoughts on being 20 weeks (more than halfway there if this pregnancy follows my last). I cannot believe how fast everything is going. Still amazed I am going to have another baby. Both my husband and I are feeling more and more blessed!
